一些唧唧喳喳的日记

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I have to express my humbleness: I am not fighting at all. I am too physically weak and frail, not healthy physically nor mentally, I would be more of a burden in any actual battle, and this is the very reason I have been deeply moved by Wojciech Zalewski: he seemed to be more fragile than me, but he fought nevertheless. I do not have his bravery, nor quality, physically nor mentally.

I am merely sitting in my chair, or thinking in my bed, with heater on, in great comfort (in contrast to the Ukrainian soldiers today, Anders' Army in the past, or the young White Army cadets) with classical music from St. Petersburg. (I cannot turn back the art and the people, without knowing their stance first) eating Choco Pies made in Russia (I am very certain this does not contribute to the military industry complex)  And with the thoughts I have, knowledge within, the least I can do is going after the middlemen contributing to the Russian industry with military potential. I cannot go after Kamaz, nor UAZ directly, but I can go after those helping them, and it is the history duty I have. I never have the pledge to anyone, any government, I even refuse to swear for military service, but facing the current world, I know what should not happen and I contribute to anything preventing them.

The problems in the US appear to be rather small in comparison, but I do have the concern of amplified effects on world order: lesson from League of Nations shouldn't be forgotten, and lesson from the failure of Wilson's foreign policy should serve as an remind, despite the timeless virtue of Wilsonianism.

Regretfully, I can no longer stand up as steel. I am mentally maimed and corrupted by the very things I hate (a luxury that Wojciech Zalewski had, but we do not. I fear I have higher potential of instability, as you have seen near the end of last year). But it is not the end, I can decode evil and navigate through, so the repayment of revenge will be made, when the time comes.  Industry is my playground, and I decide to play the fair game back. I may lose, but none of us shall avoid trying without knowing the results. I always keep Zora Arkus-Duntov and Igor Sikorsky in my mind coming to this playground.