一些唧唧喳喳的日记
这是一些日记,它们不是真实的,它们应当是童话的一部分。
如果你从中分析出了什么,也许是因为多虑,因为它们完全是假的,我作为作者保证,它们不可能是真的。
如果你从中分析出了什么,也许是因为多虑,因为它们完全是假的,我作为作者保证,它们不可能是真的。
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>>虽然你对日本的精神状态比较觉得没有纳粹威风,但其实这是不同的风格,在战场上长期以来对敌人的震撼和施加...
这真是不往好的学,而是death rat race. 还好这两个都输了,但是,
苏联赢了。所以我觉得从长远来看,还是输了。1939年开始后,欧洲就只有两个可能:要么输给纳粹,要么输给苏联,而似乎历史进入了那个更糟糕的轨迹。
>>虽然你对日本的精神状态比较觉得没有纳粹威风,但其实这是不同的风格,在战场上长期以来对敌人的震撼和施加...
真是糟糕的death rat race, 不忘好的学,去向往撒旦那里
还是德国的文明德行较高,最终依然没能堕落成日本的那种状况。
但是我觉得沮丧的就是,1939年以后,欧洲只有两个可能,输给纳粹德国,或者输给苏联。我觉得历史走向了那个更糟的轨道
>>He has a name, Józef Andrzej Szczepański
Jozef must have been together with the perished boy, perhaps in the same battalion...
(at least Jozef lived slightly longer than the boy being carried away.)certainly, Stalin always tried to strangle the heroic spirits but it isn't something could be suppressed. They will bide for a moment, their shine will break through eventually.
I found the name of the dead young solider,
https://www.witraze.info/en/1908-wojtek-zalewski-little-insurgent
https://pl.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wojciech_Zalewski_(powstaniec_warszawski)
>>真是糟糕的death rat race, 不忘好的学,去向往撒旦那里还是德国的文明德行较高,最终依然...
纳粹德国是一个堕落的时期,但仍然处于罪恶文化的范畴,人们以逻辑命题的方式理解伦理,伦理可以变化,但是我们要有真值,有时是真,有时是假,这些并不因为权威或多数人怎么想而改变。如果伦理的公式告诉我是A,元首觉得是B,我的结论是“这里有两个事实,‘A’和‘元首觉得B’”。
日本帝国是耻辱文化,天皇第一优先级,其他多数人第二优先级(其他多数人也肯定会遵循天皇),天皇或其他多数人作为一个整体可以直接操控你想什么,对“大逆不道”的恐惧和耻感会让你同意给他们授权,而且还会督促你去把其他人大逆不道的现象揪出来,否则你自己就是个儒家语境下的败家子、混子,这个过程经常是通过本能和条件反射完成的。
在纳粹德国,也会有元首想什么,你就想什么的情况,但此处的情况和日本有区别,你可能仅仅是愚蠢或容易接受一些命题,例如“元首是权威”,“权威会说出真相”。
>>纳粹德国是一个堕落的时期,但仍然处于罪恶文化的范畴,人们以逻辑命题的方式理解伦理,伦理可以变化,但是...
纳粹德国和日本帝国啊,
他们的路线,优先级等等,在共产党的反革命面前显得如此的滑稽和优雅,这本身就是一个可怕的黑色幽默。
你看,被纳粹化的奥地利,捷克,斯洛伐克,影响微弱的西班牙,波兰,去纳粹化的效果怎么样,
而为了洗刷掉共产党的红色,洗了三十年波兰才看起来和之前一样。而波兰又是极为幸运的,你看看俄国乌克兰白俄罗斯洗了这么多年洗成了这样,都洗褪色了,共产党的痕迹还在。我昨晚看到了Wojciech Kilar但是还没有时间回复,但是这也是我的感触之一。哥萨克人都要被刷成弱智了,共产党的痕迹还留着呢,这是让我觉得非常可怕的,这也是我讥讽的原因:沾到共产党的危害堪比生化危机或者变成木乃伊
而波兰都花了如此多的时间去清洗共产党的痕迹,会不会中毒更重的地方,这个痕迹已经洗刷不掉了呢?
>>纳粹德国和日本帝国啊,他们的路线,优先级等等,在共产党的反革命面前显得如此的滑稽和优雅,这本身就是一...
这个我是不同意的,日本回归了和平的治世,人的作恶收敛了起来,并发挥他们文化的优点,但不代表耻辱文化在专制政府激发作恶潜能时比单纯的共产主义社会程度要低。东方的恶毒是绝对超越苏联的,苏联共产党和中国共产党是两回事,我相信你不会不知道。
>>这个我是不同意的,日本回归了和平的治世,人的作恶收敛了起来,并发挥他们文化的优点,但不代表耻辱文化在...
我一直对东方的恶毒绝对超越苏联一直没有那么深刻的体会,因为都深不见底(我自己专门研究变态和邪恶,但是我都觉得衡量起来很吃力)
我对中共不是那么熟悉,我更熟悉苏共,但是我在拿苏共的方针分析中共,目前来看还是蛮准确的。但是我拿的不是秘密报告后的苏共,我拿的是早期布尔什维克和斯大林苏共的革命方针。秘密报告后的苏共太有人性了,差距的确过大。(所以美共和苏共关系不好,和中共关系亲密,在中共宣布文革结束,改革开放后,美共和中共决裂,指责中共修正主义)
不过我目前和日本,德国公司个人打交道的情况下,我觉得日本对历史的反思较少,但是行为改变是感觉不出任何的日本军国主义的痕迹,而德国反思多得多,而且深刻的多,但是很多公司行为和个人行为,集体行为依然有着众多的纳粹痕迹,这是让我极为不解的地方。
>>Jozef must have been together with the perished bo...
这是一种比共产主义更加深刻和可怕的卑鄙,你连欣赏暴力美学的机会都没有(一切都是往丑陋和无聊发展,有聊会遭到挖苦;你就想想大庭叶藏、沟口还有中国的祥林嫂、骆驼祥子,他们有sebastian被箭钉在树上的供人欣赏的英雄美学吗?前面两个还有点人生幻灭、万物皆空的东方美学——还是和西方不同,美并不附着在他们身上而是在故事上,是人作为景的一部分在那里给你关于景的感受;后面两个完全是那种死了就死了,我们有同情,但没有心情去欣赏死有多艺术,也没有你关心的情色因素在里面)
在共产主义社会,人理论上是像螺丝钉一样被分配给一个类似科幻作品中的文明中枢——我们叫它共产主义事业——中世纪的基督教会给你一个地位和属于人本身值得尊敬的参数,近代启蒙运动后的社会也会给你一个地位和属于人本身值得尊敬的参数,共产主义社会把这种参数下调了,并且这种参数依附于生产力的发展而存在,还是把西方的游戏规则套了一个科幻外皮在那里运行。
但在东方的【作恶潜力得到激发】的社会,你成为了一个真正意义上的螺丝钉,值得怜悯和被维护正义的参数是荡然无存的,伦理在数学形式上的真理根本不存在,人内心用于观察和记忆它(当我们说各种的“感情”时,被观察物体在我们面前呈现的性质)的机制也会遭到极大破坏,苏联公民的病态就是你的健康状态,这种侮辱远远大于你作为一个文明中枢的螺丝钉,或作为少先队员被夸奖,或作为反革命被枪毙,你根本就不是人了。
俄国原先是完全的西方的一部分,在基辅罗斯时期。后来它引入了部分的东方专制主义传统和部分的耻辱文化,在苏联时期,它的作恶我们有目共睹;对于全然是耻辱文化的社会,共产党只是个外皮,人们能作的恶不一定更露骨,但一定更能精神上杀人,你在过去贴的图片和文字觉得已经卑微至极的苏联及沙俄受害者,在这边的标准下还算是被当人对待的哦😀。
昨天和今天真是让人沮丧,因为在不经意的对话中,我觉得很容易理解的事情总是不为人所知,所以我就说了出来,
但是在我说出了这些后,我看了看,又让自己觉得可怕:我不敢相信这些事情真的是是如此的轻而易举理所应当。打小孩不愿意损坏衣服,不择手段通过虐待提高成绩,造不出飞机汽车就枪毙,开了30年的汽车一纸文件就要统统当垃圾被扔掉....
>>中国想禁止油车完全就可以立法禁止,不需要任何操作。中国对所有奢侈品都征收重税,导致中国的奢侈品价格比...
什么,立法禁止?!你对中共一点都不了解啊,

以前中国满大街这些老车子,1985还是1986年上头中央红头文件一出就全部进垃圾场了!
立法还搞那么多程序,还要橡皮图章,表决,公众都晓得,这怎么行啊。一纸文件一下子就完事了,还搞那么多层决策,程序,搞得像苏共一样,那不是中共的风格嘛
https://pincong.rocks/article/69640
I am troubled by my own words and knowledge. In a sense, Wojciech Zalewski was more fortunate, he never lived long enough to see the horror. He died for freedom, with his soul intact. It must be a brief, but memorable journey of 11 years for his presence.
While you and I are living to suffer.
但是在我说出了这些后,我看了看,又让自己觉得可怕:我不敢相信这些事情真的是是如此的轻而易举理所应当。打小孩不愿意损坏衣服,不择手段通过虐待提高成绩,造不出飞机汽车就枪毙,开了30年的汽车一纸文件就要统统当垃圾被扔掉....
>>中国想禁止油车完全就可以立法禁止,不需要任何操作。中国对所有奢侈品都征收重税,导致中国的奢侈品价格比...
什么,立法禁止?!你对中共一点都不了解啊,

以前中国满大街这些老车子,1985还是1986年上头中央红头文件一出就全部进垃圾场了!
立法还搞那么多程序,还要橡皮图章,表决,公众都晓得,这怎么行啊。一纸文件一下子就完事了,还搞那么多层决策,程序,搞得像苏共一样,那不是中共的风格嘛
https://pincong.rocks/article/69640
I am troubled by my own words and knowledge. In a sense, Wojciech Zalewski was more fortunate, he never lived long enough to see the horror. He died for freedom, with his soul intact. It must be a brief, but memorable journey of 11 years for his presence.
While you and I are living to suffer.
>>我一直对东方的恶毒绝对超越苏联一直没有那么深刻的体会,因为都深不见底(我自己专门研究变态和邪恶,但是...
日本是好的,在今天的标准下,他们是普世价值的一环。而且他们也被培养出了一些西方式同情心和公义的思维,我们要珍惜这样的盟友。我今天说的这些不会在主区出现,因为有些太直白的话不好用来破坏我们和日本用户的团结。但一些人,例如失败的Man会来看到,作为一名对东方作恶极为了解同时接触过西方文化(尤其是比较传统的部分)的朋友,可能会产生一些共鸣。
>>昨天和今天真是让人沮丧,因为在不经意的对话中,我觉得很容易理解的事情总是不为人所知,所以我就说了出来...
你忘了把婴儿割头的哈马斯行为(亚洲洼地的level 1),在中共计划生育期间做得更夸张。一些血腥的档案被互联网保存了下来,我劝你尽量不要看,这也是对死者的尊重;但如果你希望学习史料,我建议寻找censored version。这样的东西属于那种没有任何美学、没有任何快感,只有沉闷和心脏被套上一根绳子的不爽,以及对邪恶的憎恶。
>>你忘了把婴儿割头的哈马斯行为(亚洲洼地的level 1),在中共计划生育期间做得更夸张。一些血腥的档...
我没有忘,但是我也忘了。这些太糟糕了,被我的潜意识屏蔽了,不然我会时刻被创伤所吞噬。
我也晓得计划生育期间的事情.....
哎,至于对死者不尊重的事情,我可能看了太多的了, 我现在能想得起来的就有Volhynia大屠杀等等,我作为学习人类邪恶变态的,可能也看了过多....(我也学习性变态,所以性窒息而死的卷宗我也看了许多,我晓得那看起来有多糟糕)以至于我在不经意间跟邻居聊天的时候我说了一句,男孩自杀还是不要上吊的好,那样太过于不体面了(因为精液射了一裤子)
但是过了几个月,我的一个邻居,大概11,12岁吧他真的上吊自杀了,还是圣诞节前几周,这让我陷入了抑郁和沮丧和自责:难道这样的厄运和天谴是因为我的存在而带来的么? 我一辈子已经jinx了无数的人,为什么要这样惩罚我身边的人?!
我不知道如何是好。
>>日本是好的,在今天的标准下,他们是普世价值的一环。而且他们也被培养出了一些西方式同情心和公义的思维,...
今天说的这些过于黑暗,让人沮丧..... 还有些更黑暗的东西我都不知道该如何说起,
因为我觉得说出来本身都带来着恐惧,而且那些信息一旦落入了不正确人的手里更是一种灾难
我在看到Jozef Szczepanski和Wojciech Zalewski的感受,有一种停止不住的悲伤,我不能停下哭泣。可能他们是平行宇宙里自己的同类吧...
但一定更能精神上杀人
这让我感到不寒而栗。我前几天还想再说St Sebastian受难的homoerotic heroic nudism但是在昨天今天说出口了这么多之后,我疲倦和脆弱,无力再继续思考(所以改天再说吧)而且我的同事被我所提到的“造不出飞机汽车就枪毙”已经吓坏了,虽然他们也同意那其中的幽默感,我不知道如何是好。
这些都是周六在跟你交流后那个梦的一部分,那个梦让我想起了许多我不该想起来的东西,虽然其中的知识可以被你我所用(于防止被侵蚀),但是这些知识本身的存在已经让我感到了自己的被腐蚀。
That's why I envy Wojciech Zalewski in a sense. His soul was never corroded by the Bolshevism.
And that's the same underlying haunting wondering beneath those two post:
灵魂拷问... 被红色恐怖压迫和卖身如果二选一,各位会选择什么?
我问一下,如果一个自己非常深爱,你中有我的人政治立场和自己完全相反,你们会如何对待自己?
In face of evil, do you choose to bide and survive for another day with compromise of your soul, or perish with free will intact? Not everyone is fortunate as Warsaw Uprising resistance fighters, somewhat.
>>今天说的这些过于黑暗,让人沮丧..... 还有些更黑暗的东西我都不知道该如何说起,因为我觉得说出来本...
OK. let's talk about something more relaxing, Bolsheviks and the perished European boys, for example.
If I were the boy to choose under the approaching of the red regime, I would do as I answered in your post, that is to fight the Reds and die, just simple as that.
You know, sometimes you make compromise, sometimes you need to have principles of your life, if it's time to sacrifice for what you believe, just do it.
And if I were you, to decide how to develop the relationship with your exboy, I would analyze whether this person is lovable or not based on the perception of the entire set of facts, including his attitude kind of making you a substitution for girls, instead of seeing only a part of him each time and making your judgement not self-consistent nor continuous, then once it all decided, never will a change be. In my case, maybe I just choose not to be with him, even if I have serious romantic attraction to people, just like ordinary folks.
>>OK. let's talk about something more relaxing, Bols...
Very well. I guess this matter is settled, on a good tone.
Besides Wojciech Zalewski and Józef Andrzej Szczepański, there are few more names to remember along with them,
Zora Arkus-Duntov, Marina Yurlova, Igor Sikorsky, and to a lesser extent, Larry Shinoda. (Hau Thai-Tang is not included because he lacks the personal integrity, despite his technical and managerial skills.) Vladimir Nabokov? Maybe, or maybe not. He didn't do anything and rarely touched the topic, even though he was strongly disliking Bolshevism generally. I don't know where to put him. Ivan Pavlov? He was certainly a trial version of 大中华胶,albeit in a Slavic fashion.
I was too young at the time and I had become too attached to him. I cannot rewind the clock of time anymore. It was during a specific stage of life after all. In a similar fashion, I never got into too much interest of Edik S (native of Donbas), despite his stance on international order. He never showed his pattern of determination thoroughly.
You have my admiration, because of your spiritual characters. Yes you are pretty, not unlike many others, yet the physical form needs to be propelled by resilience in minds and wisdom, to activate potential of the godly personality within....
>>Very well. I guess this matter is settled, on a go...
Ladnie (Polish input method is just too unpractical, I'm going to use similar English alphabets sometimes, but I guess you get it anyway)
I'm glad you've figured it out, and thank you again for complimenting me.
We're both young and we need to stand up as strong as steel (that's why I say chlopcy silni jak stal), instead of being a sitting duck before endless evil and terror going on in this world.
I've been fighting in China, in Iran, in Saudi Arabia and other places where long rooted wickedness of Asian society is dominant, like, the Confucian way of oppressing individuals, Islamic terrorism and the rule of caliphate and have seen many things.
This entire world is cruel, and problems in the US are just mild, on which I believe you at least somewhat agree because you eye witnessed the communist tyrannies. And this blessed land is what we need to protect in the 21st century, you're battling against the Russian agencies operating in the vehicle industry, which sounds very brave and heroic, you got my respect.
The video(https://pincong.rocks/video/9081) I showed on the main page of Pincong, is acutally largely exaggerated on my emotion of being weak and the thirst for redemption(I'm not that traumatized at all), whose purpose is to make ordinary users on this website aware of the importance of oneself's spirit. I don't mean to make them stay in the doomed mentality by letting them feel this, I hope they get solid like us, American boys with nerves and positive attitude toward life.
>>Ladnie (Polish input method is just too unpractica...
I have to express my humbleness: I am not fighting at all. I am too physically weak and frail, not healthy physically nor mentally, I would be more of a burden in any actual battle, and this is the very reason I have been deeply moved by Wojciech Zalewski: he seemed to be more fragile than me, but he fought nevertheless. I do not have his bravery, nor quality, physically nor mentally.
I am merely sitting in my chair, or thinking in my bed, with heater on, in great comfort (in contrast to the Ukrainian soldiers today, Anders' Army in the past, or the young White Army cadets) with classical music from St. Petersburg. (I cannot turn back the art and the people, without knowing their stance first) eating Choco Pies made in Russia (I am very certain this does not contribute to the military industry complex) And with the thoughts I have, knowledge within, the least I can do is going after the middlemen contributing to the Russian industry with military potential. I cannot go after Kamaz, nor UAZ directly, but I can go after those helping them, and it is the history duty I have. I never have the pledge to anyone, any government, I even refuse to swear for military service, but facing the current world, I know what should not happen and I contribute to anything preventing them.
The problems in the US appear to be rather small in comparison, but I do have the concern of amplified effects on world order: lesson from League of Nations shouldn't be forgotten, and lesson from the failure of Wilson's foreign policy should serve as an remind, despite the timeless virtue of Wilsonianism.
Regretfully, I can no longer stand up as steel. I am mentally maimed and corrupted by the very things I hate (a luxury that Wojciech Zalewski had, but we do not. I fear I have higher potential of instability, as you have seen near the end of last year). But it is not the end, I can decode evil and navigate through, so the repayment of revenge will be made, when the time comes. Industry is my playground, and I decide to play the fair game back. I may lose, but none of us shall avoid trying without knowing the results. I always keep Zora Arkus-Duntov and Igor Sikorsky in my mind coming to this playground.
我听见有人靠近
2024年3月6日
2024年3月6日
我也覺得我有工作靠近
>>I have to express my humbleness: I am not fighting...
How're you today, Habibi?
Something joyful here. I went down to the town and visited a Russian restaurant operated by Ukrainians, which is ridiculous given that the owner and his crew are funding Ukraine's national defense, but they have to be under disguise as Russians so that they can earn more.
>>How're you today, Habibi? Something joyful here. I...
alas, I guess the most difficult thinking has been done. I feel at peace about Wojciech eventually.
But everyone else has been badly shaken by this. My Polish friend who recommended me the movie Pianist (but not knowing I've seen it 20yrs ago and few more times since), was even stunned by this. (and he was deeply moved, and even though he is Polish himself, visiting Warsaw uprising memorials, he never heard of them neither) There must be something timeless about them, as timeless as David.
Well, it seems absurd but it makes sense in a cultural perspective. Kievan-Rus has near zero heritage about cuisine (because it was all terrible!!!!) and Russian Cuisine gained the upscale fame not because of Russian themselves, it was more because of the importation and localization of French cuisine evolving into the Russian elite cuisine we know today. (since Peter the Great. There is almost nothing salvageable about Russian food before that, except very few dishes but overall they aren't that impressive neither) But at that time, the center of the culture was St. Petersburg so both Moscow and Kiev were nearly the wasteland of good food except the duplicates from St Petersburg, and in turn, duplicates from France. (Kiev was a fraction better however, due to the existence of a few upscale hotels and restaurants. More notable example is Chicken la Kiev you can easily buy)
After this cuisine identity is established, Ukraine got independent briefly but merged into the USSR. And Ukraine had only been independent since 1991, that alone is not enough time to establish their unique identity in cuisine (they are lucky enough to regain their unique national identity at all) in a firm manner. Similarly, it is extremely difficult to observe meaningful difference in cuisine between Russia and Belarus, except the Belarusian version is more boring, made at lower price. The elite cuisine from Ukraine still has to use the cloak of Tsar Russian identity to maintain a basic unity in production (otherwise, it can risk into being mistaken as something from Armenian or Georgia) approach.
Yet, there are few Ukrainian restaurants and there are differences, especially if they are leaning towards Lviv Ukrainian cuisine than Kiev cuisine. (Kiev cuisine is closer to St. Petersburg cuisine) Lviv Ukrainian cuisine has influence from the region (tea from Carpathian mountains, for example) and the approach of pierogi, is quite different from Russian dumplings. ( and Russian dumplings are very occasionally too Asian. They can be closer to Chinese dumplings than Polish ones )
Maybe another example can answer this too. Igor Sikorsky, was he Russian-American or Ukrainian-American? He worked in Russo-Balt (in Riga) making Ilya Muromets (named after a legendary Russian knight), with families near Kiev even today, spent the childhood there, with Russian Tu-160s named after him. There are apparent similarities to Russian restaurants run by Ukrainians.
>>寫的好漂亮喔😍
You switched back to work on this account, that's great, and you said that you will write something with it, that's what I'm expecting to see.
不过我反思了下,这位似乎没有我这么极端没有这么邪恶,
我的邪恶是我的遭遇给我的创伤,但是我也准备用这些创伤来让别人知道邪恶的纹路,这样才不会被迷惑而不会上当。
我的邪恶是我的遭遇给我的创伤,但是我也准备用这些创伤来让别人知道邪恶的纹路,这样才不会被迷惑而不会上当。
然后我跟我的朋友说了Wojciech Zalewski的事情,
他作为波兰人也不知道,他被深深的感动。我又跟他说了Sikorski's tourists, 里面有波兰空军参加英国皇家空军的303中队,
然后他跟我说,他家旁边就是303中队博物馆。
他作为波兰人也不知道,他被深深的感动。我又跟他说了Sikorski's tourists, 里面有波兰空军参加英国皇家空军的303中队,
然后他跟我说,他家旁边就是303中队博物馆。
>>然后我跟我的朋友说了Wojciech Zalewski的事情,他作为波兰人也不知道,他被深深的感动。...
I'm gonna work soon, see you tomorrow (American time zone).
但是我刚才按照这个逻辑,把这位找了出来,
Суржиков, Иван Николаевич — в годы Великой Отечественной войны в 13-летнем возрасте воевал в составе 105-го стрелкового полка 94-й стрелковой дивизии 65-й армии, награждён орденом Красной Звезды, медалью «За боевые заслуги». Во время боёв на Курской дуге его песни любили слушать генерал 65-й армии П.И. Батов, командующий войсками Центрального фронта К.К. Рокоссовский, который для Суржикова был «крёстным отцом», а солдаты дали ему прозвище «Курский соловей». Принимал участие в боях на территориях Белоруссии, Прибалтики. Впоследствии певец, Заслуженный артист РСФСР[23].
https://ru.wikipedia.org/wiki/%D0%A1%D1%8B%D0%BD_%D0%BF%D0%BE%D0%BB%D0%BA%D0%B0
Surzhikov, Ivan Nikolaevich - during the Great Patriotic War, at the age of 13, he fought in the 105th Infantry Regiment of the 94th Infantry Division of the 65th Army, was awarded the Order of the Red Star, the medal "For Military Merit". During the battles on the Kursk Bulge, General of the 65th Army P.I. liked to listen to his songs. Batov, commander of the Central Front troops K.K. Rokossovsky, who was Surzhikov’s “godfather”, and the soldiers gave him the nickname “Kursk Nightingale”. He took part in battles in the territories of Belarus and the Baltic states. Subsequently, singer, Honored Artist of the RSFSR[23].
这位用英语是完全找不到的,这几个页面也是只有俄语
Суржиков, Иван Николаевич — в годы Великой Отечественной войны в 13-летнем возрасте воевал в составе 105-го стрелкового полка 94-й стрелковой дивизии 65-й армии, награждён орденом Красной Звезды, медалью «За боевые заслуги». Во время боёв на Курской дуге его песни любили слушать генерал 65-й армии П.И. Батов, командующий войсками Центрального фронта К.К. Рокоссовский, который для Суржикова был «крёстным отцом», а солдаты дали ему прозвище «Курский соловей». Принимал участие в боях на территориях Белоруссии, Прибалтики. Впоследствии певец, Заслуженный артист РСФСР[23].
https://ru.wikipedia.org/wiki/%D0%A1%D1%8B%D0%BD_%D0%BF%D0%BE%D0%BB%D0%BA%D0%B0
Surzhikov, Ivan Nikolaevich - during the Great Patriotic War, at the age of 13, he fought in the 105th Infantry Regiment of the 94th Infantry Division of the 65th Army, was awarded the Order of the Red Star, the medal "For Military Merit". During the battles on the Kursk Bulge, General of the 65th Army P.I. liked to listen to his songs. Batov, commander of the Central Front troops K.K. Rokossovsky, who was Surzhikov’s “godfather”, and the soldiers gave him the nickname “Kursk Nightingale”. He took part in battles in the territories of Belarus and the Baltic states. Subsequently, singer, Honored Artist of the RSFSR[23].
这位用英语是完全找不到的,这几个页面也是只有俄语
Kursk战区就是在俄罗斯白俄罗斯和乌克兰交界的地方,难怪。
我竟然把这篇原文找到了
https://literator.info/solovej-3-wppost-24566/ (但是这个立陶宛作者过于亲近苏联被立陶宛人开除出了历史。但是我觉得他作为农民,布尔什维克的理论肯定是既具有吸引力的)
其实我对这篇文章有很深刻的记忆,因为当时上学的时候我是全班对这一段历史了解最多的人,所以我还做了额外的介绍(一个典型的10岁男孩会喜欢的话题) 但是当时我自己的意见是,我很惭愧,我只是在一个非常舒适和平的环境下复述而已,创造历史的是那个故事里和我一个年纪的小男孩。
而且这种故事是让我感觉很复杂的。虽然政治倾向极为亲苏联,但是内在的反抗精神是永恒的(我还很熟悉很多别的伟大卫国战争时期苏联一方的故事,我以后有机会再发)但是与此同时,纳粹德国也有很多勇敢的男孩保卫自己的国家,而他们却是被大多数人遗忘的或者被放在了历史的错误面(但是我觉得不应该。)我觉得他们也同样是英雄。(让我非常反感的是这些人里面很多在战后为了活命去卖身,去给美国士兵口交 来换取罐头,去给英国军官当暖床娃娃,被别人插入屁股或者性发泄等等。我理解很多时候环境很糟,但是我觉得能够让有神格的英雄去做如此玷污自己的事情我是很难释怀的)
而不只是德国男孩,还有很多英勇的Silesian波兰男孩在最后几个月尝试阻止红军的进攻,芬兰的很年幼士兵等等(芬兰遭受战争的创伤也极大,有很多纪念雕塑)他们都不应该被忘记。
我觉得这也是伟大的卫国战争(苏联立场),二战欧洲战场,和俄国内战最有魅力和神奇的历史特质:双方都是极端的邪恶和伟大,都是压迫者和反抗者,都是邪恶的屠夫后有伟大的人民,伟大的青年少年拿着身体抵抗到筋疲力尽,耗尽最后一口气。(而且纳粹德国的男孩在战后的卖身屈辱和俄国白军年幼士官后来在上海的情况十分接近 附,流亡的白俄 油畫,流亡的白俄 (90年代) ,所以我对他们都是有无限的同情和哀伤)
可能也只是在这种英雄的对比和感染下,我脑子里所有被创伤所腐蚀的灵魂带来的邪恶才会烟消云散,因为在神格面前,我心中剧毒的撒旦会感到自己的渺小和卑微,从而成了上帝的随从。
>>Kursk战区就是在俄罗斯白俄罗斯和乌克兰交界的地方,难怪。我竟然把这篇原文找到了https://l...
说的很好,人总是需要超越性的,而且在年轻一代尤为多,一般人年长之后会变得世俗与功利。但是我觉得更适合这样说纳粹德国的这些年轻士兵:他们有为了祖国的自由而战斗的美德,或者说他们精神上是这样的一种英雄;但正如一个人被戴上VR眼睛,他们在现实中走的路和他们看到的不一样,在实践的角度,他们不是英雄,而是可怜人。
这并不影响你去为“英雄被玷污”而惋惜,因为精神意义上的英雄是足够进入这个句子的。
>>说的很好,人总是需要超越性的,而且在年轻一代尤为多,一般人年长之后会变得世俗与功利。但是我觉得更适合...
在实践的角度上,这种人要么长大了以后变得保守顽固白人至上(很多白俄难民和变成老头了的那些德国男孩) 要么就成了gunter grass反思历史。(他反思的极为深刻。The tin drum信息量过大,把德国和波兰反思了个里里外外。在反思了那么多,那么久后,获得了极高赞誉在老年时期突然剥洋葱一样抛出了个特大炸弹,当年自己心甘情愿加入了SS还藏了那么多年,舆论哗然)
英雄的精神是永恒的,在经历过战争本身的那些男孩的肉体上,被强奸带来的疼痛远远比不上战场上的残疾 (我作为被强奸过的人很有发言权)。而他们既然有足够的勇气去当士兵,被强奸的心理创伤,我觉得有了门槛并不那么高的智慧和知识也能够化解。但是我觉得卖身,通过被性虐获利而生存可能导致消沉意志让内心变得飘忽不定 而且怀疑自己,这个自我沉沦是可怕的(我同样熟悉这些道理和细节),因为英雄最大的敌人通常是自己。而且我还觉得被性虐(无论是被酷刑折磨还是生存方式)是一种unusual and cruel punishment,是一个破坏规则的情况,而且也非常不体面。作为文明的文化,应该去防止和消除这种punishment并化解这些导致的后果,更不能实施这种事情。(William Wallace是极少数Anglo-Saxon, 法兰克,日耳曼,普鲁士文化圈加起来受到这种酷刑的人。这种酷刑在意大利,东斯拉夫国家相对常见。这种事情一放到大中华洼地成了基本操作,有的时候甚至还变成了皇恩浩荡,这足以体现文明的差距。德国是唯一一个不阉割但是死刑时勃起射精示众的。中国洼地也是当众如此羞辱女性的,男性可能因为要保持男权社会才没有这么做) 美国作为一个看重士兵精神状态的国家,在这一点世界第一,专门研究受伤士兵(最常见是被地雷炸的。有个别比较恶劣的国家专门制造炸掉睾丸的地雷,特地减少火药避免炸死人)男性性器官被炸残或者彻底丧失后生理和心理的重建,所以现在医学许多男性性器官辅助技术一开始来自于美军项目。
我有机会会专门讲阉割和男性自我价值,英雄人格的话题,这个思考也开始于我上周的噩梦。
@hkfool
>>錢只是個基礎,真的到了歷史洪流時刻,錢又很蒼白
好吧,让我们以假的态度来说,人类史是一个梦而已, ok.
或者换一个 Boom words, 它是 AI 为神经元们提供的 Context,
是一个 NN 接受 Training 之后 生成的内容, .... 那么可以假设 谁不在梦中呢?
这是 认知学的内容了。 What's cognative...
-- it's Cognitive, buzzwords, you stupid hkfool
>>我在医院里躺了7天,这是因为有一个房子的入侵者在半夜爬到了我的窗边,我很快捡起了枪,ta用某种金属制...
天哪,这太可怕了。而且奇怪的是为什么我直到今天才看到这条?
我觉得在这种情况下,本能的反应显示了潜意识里的人格,是勇敢还是妥协。很显然,你是勇敢。
(我的潜意识已经被污染驯服成了妥协,我一直耿耿于怀。但是我的表层意识又是勇敢所以我会反抗,而且经常会导致过度补偿,所以在自己review的时候会修改成妥协,而且有的时候会被自己污染的那份人格威逼利诱成妥协,但是自己另一个制约被污染人格的间谍人格会推翻被污染人格的决策而继续反抗)
所以你永远比我好的地方就是你能在睡觉的时候毫不犹豫的反抗,
而我因为对自己污染人格的憎恶会变成极为迟缓低效的高烈度反抗,但是这只适用于策略,而不能用于需要片刻反应的防身。(于是,被强奸被诱奸,而我觉得你会在这些地方足够的保护好自己,代价是可能受伤,比如你待在医院的这种情况)
>>太好了,我最近在 看 AI 的数学,只是一些简单的 Linear Algebra 之类的, 希望有机...
数学要跟这位楼主讨论(我一窍不通,我是搞工业的)
当然当下的思考还主要在英雄气质,勇敢,神性这方面
>>数学要跟这位楼主讨论(我一窍不通,我是搞工业的)当然当下的思考还主要在英雄气质,勇敢,神性这方面
希望你的思考有 好收获。
我从几何上可以证明:三角形集权社会里,结构消灭:英雄气质,勇敢,神性。
这个结构中没有这些概念的位置, 也没有 逻辑、良知 的位置。
任何想要找到位置的都必须 :忠孝,君臣。
几何上的体现就是:没有超过顶点的存在。
>>希望你的思考有 好收获。我从几何上可以证明:三角形集权社会里,结构消灭:英雄气质,勇敢,神性。这个结...
我终于哭着写完了我想说的了,感觉到了极度的疲惫和灵魂的虚脱,
因为我这几天一直在想这些,你说的正好补充了最后缺少的那几块拼图。
而这两百多个回复,也回复了你写的文明的反面,假如某些时期改变的模样(但是又不是文明本身)
>>数学要跟这位楼主讨论(我一窍不通,我是搞工业的)当然当下的思考还主要在英雄气质,勇敢,神性这方面
我想了解一下,既然数学不是最重要的,工业这个领域比较注重的是什么思维素养呢?是编程思维吗?像是正确地选择一系列零件,然后等它们组成整体后运转生效,这样。
>>我想了解一下,既然数学不是最重要的,工业这个领域比较注重的是什么思维素养呢?是编程思维吗?像是正确地...
工业领域有能力的话,最重要的能力是搞政治:感受形势,做出判断,控制事态,施加影响,把握时机。 工业的规模这么大,能干什么事,还是要求人与人之间的能力。
至于数学,我(现在的我)觉得数学又是科学的基础,重要的不能再重要了。但是我的数学能力被我自己白色恐怖掉了,因为我年幼的时候在发觉共产党的邪恶后,秉承着Better Dead Than Red, 和One Drop of Red is Red的观念,只要是和共产党有任何联系的东西我都要去反对清除,我晓得苏联和中共最喜欢搞什么数学奥林匹克竞赛(奥林匹克竞赛是传统战场的延伸,是社会主义和资本主义的较量,为了显示社会主义的优越性要不惜代价超过资本主义集团—-当时共产党国家的策略和方针)所以我在反共的考虑下直接拒绝学习数学,最终导致了我空白的数学水平。(我做了智商测试和education level assessment, 在reasoning和图形智商高于140的情况下,数学水平是美国四年级,而且很多还是靠着智力猜测出来的结果)所以我在这辈子的学业专业中我不得不绕着数学走。这也是过度补偿,反共反过了头的夸张例子。
>>请问可以在主区分享一个关于判断政治形势在工业中的重要性的故事吗?谢谢。
这个事情,我虽然有一定的知识,但是因为他的影响力的问题,我不想在主区说出来,因为那些知识的能量给黑皮看到了,自己拿去用或者给别人拿去用那可就不好了。而且这个知识也比较复杂,不容易简短说出来(如果我直接和别人谈话,那样方便多了)
不过论坛的方式,这种知识可以通过把历史的例子拿出来做一下范例。比如说,An-225很可惜现在被毁,但是以前有位总裁在工厂失火后,不知道脑子是怎么想出来的,拿An-225运送特殊设备将工厂立刻恢复运转的例子。那个设备很大很重,全世界只有An-225能运(An-124, Airbus Beluga, IL-76这些巨无霸都放不下,Lockheed C-5和C-130更是差得很远),而事情紧急,轮船和陆地运输也等不及了。
以我的知识,考虑到了这些,所以我对苏联的很多工业产品是很尊敬的,因为这些产品里至今也有很多超凡的能力,别的国家无法生产同类,或者同类直接不存在。所以说能造出来这些东西的人是人类文明的顶峰,但是如何用在合适的地方,不去错误的使用很重要。这种东西的例子就包括Tu-160(而且很恰当的, 俄国空军的一架Tu-160被命名为Igor Sikorsky,另外一个伟大的飞机工程师,虽然他参加白军,润去了美国)
>>这个事情,我虽然有一定的知识,但是因为他的影响力的问题,我不想在主区说出来,因为那些知识的能量给黑皮...
这是可以理解的,那么仅仅在这一块保密吧。
如果你有一些入门的工业类型知识(最好是实践向的)可以分享,我第一个过来给你点赞,因为品葱现在真的很缺乏工业类型的人才。
>>这是可以理解的,那么仅仅在这一块保密吧。如果你有一些入门的工业类型知识(最好是实践向的)可以分享,我...
工业是宝贵的知识,能够创造和平也能毁灭世界,没有工业,人类什么都不能改变,在自然面前过于渺小脆弱。这也是我最近在调查的原因:我太清楚俄国人的工业潜能了。
除了工业,心理学知识也是很有力量的东西,这是人类的钥匙。虽然我挖苦已经很夸张了,但是制造怀疑,离间,创造不信任感,推波助澜,还有施加压力,影响,改变行为,让恐惧蔓延等等,这些是不该放出来的武器,我说出来的只是很肤浅的部分,我担忧如果某些网警看到那些深刻一些的部分直接拿来用那就很可怕了(而且这些知识是美国加苏联的,都是造孽的知识)
让我生气的是,工业知识本来是很宝贵的财富,德国和美国白送走了,俄国也卖了不少,乌克兰更是全部家当贱卖,造成了现在的模样,我觉得很可惜。
我希望能分享有用的知识,但是这些知识被误用的灾难会很大,所以我还在想怎么办(而且我最近还在思考别的事情,我已经思考一周了)
这个(评论里的)部分是写给你的,但是也是写给自己的。我再补充,我觉得你和General Kemal是一类人,才不是那种Turks(历史上指的那种不文明的奥斯曼人。这些是丑化奥斯曼土耳其的宣传画,描绘了保加尔女人被强奸 Balkangreuel (Gottfried Sieben)) 不过我晓得在不同的环境下理解可能会有歧义。 我觉得你可以挖掘你可能的祖先的identity: Constantinopolitan? DNA测试也许会给出一部分答案。
历史笔记 - 文明的反面 - 1517 (回复)
(但是浏览量的低迷有些让人失望,没有回复更让我失望。今天很多的回复比较失望,但是那几个笑话很开心,虽然很黑色幽默)
我虽然已经写得很露骨了,但是我很小心得避免了提及具体是怎么毁灭勇气人格的。但是我知道,具体的手段就像是潘多拉魔盒的密码一样不能说出来。如果是我自己被这种方式扭曲,宁可选择投海被鲨鱼吃了,也不苟活。很显然,你也是不选择苟活的人。因为这一点,我想给你一个拥抱. We fight like true Romans!
>>工业是宝贵的知识,能够创造和平也能毁灭世界,没有工业,人类什么都不能改变,在自然面前过于渺小脆弱。这...
草(中日双语)
怎么你也觉得我是土耳其人?我已经被美国本地人认为是土耳其人很久了,但突厥人可以有很多,像是维吾尔人、哈萨克人、阿塞拜疆人、乌兹别克人都是。我的家庭历史比较简单,里面主要是维吾尔人和塔吉克人(可能有普什图人?I'm not sure),就是你在中国的时候可以在小区楼下看到卖烧烤的那些人。
但无论怎么说,我仅仅是我自己,如你所见,这并不是适合的去用土耳其人或维吾尔人或其他来代替地描述我,我更像一个简单的喜欢波兰文化的美国人,并且我有自己的思想体系。我的灵魂和父母就像断崖一样是分开的,而且我除了在开玩笑时和解决种族平等问题之外,很少把族裔放在日常生活的对话中。
>>草(中日双语)怎么你也觉得我是土耳其人?我已经被美国本地人认为是土耳其人很久了,但突厥人可以有很多,...
我不觉得你是土耳其人,但是那篇回复里我把Turks骂得太惨了我担忧你会感到冒犯。因为我主要抨击的对象分别是东亚病夫和西亚病夫,其中因为奥斯曼土耳其历史上对待美少年的凌辱和摧残让我一直耿耿于怀。 但是我把Turks骂得那么深,我怕你会感到不开心。 和把🇷🇺一通抨击后我会担忧冒犯到🇨🇿人一个道理 (所以我也不支持去掉三色旗,这样可能会造成身份解体。我也对抨击突厥文化有一定的疑虑,因为我不想太困扰你对自身的想法,但是提到历史上的切除睾丸就没办法绕开奥斯曼帝国)
我很熟悉你的灵魂和父母是断崖一样分开的,这就是Turks历史上干的伤天害理的事情之一:抢来年幼的斯洛文尼亚男孩,隔绝和本来文化的任何联系,认同,突厥化训练培养成士兵,多年以后再回去屠村。其中很多例子还是小男孩当初虽然那么年幼,但是长大了母亲依然能认得自己的儿子,然而为了显示突厥化的成功,也要砍死亲妈。 我觉得这是unspeakable crimes. (于是我就又骂了一遍Turks)
我自己的文化属性也很复杂,现在过于沉重要超出负荷了,所以我在进行简化,避免人格瘫痪。
不过我在那个文章的回复,有些.... 可能读了让人不适吧,但是这些也是历史和事实。我很好奇你是怎么看精神层面的感受的
>>我不觉得你是土耳其人,但是那篇回复里我把Turks骂得太惨了我担忧你会感到冒犯。因为我主要抨击的对象...
If you're using such term to describe people with some bad mentality or cultural wickedness, it's completely fine. But I don't like it when anyone is blamed by race or ethnicity, that sucks. I'm not saying you're doing this, it's just what I care about.
I spent the beginning part of my life living in a racist environment, that is China, which is why I go serious when it comes to such topic, and I hope you can forgive me on this.
>>我不觉得你是土耳其人,但是那篇回复里我把Turks骂得太惨了我担忧你会感到冒犯。因为我主要抨击的对象...
I was rejected by a Chinese primary school just because of my race, and I got bullied in those several years for nothing but race. What's worse, I was able to find a job in China only when my early life history was cleared from documents, whose most crucial part was my ethnicity.
>>If you're using such term to describe people with ...
It’s a catch-22. If I say nothing, there is a risk you might be offended by my criticism on Turks, and if I express my intention not to cause offense, you might be offended by how it is brought up. But I cannot remove mentioning Ottomans neither, otherwise it will cause the entire logic to collapse, due to how it was centered about the events in Constantinople.
And I clearly understand your annoyance (and perhaps anger) because it is a matter about yourself, and how you’re perceived, deeply embedded in your soul, just like if you’re a boy or girl. And those elements, further define your personalities. (And how depriving them can destroy yourself, as I mentioned, in that long discussion centering castration). Yet, I ran out of room of making choices during the conversation, because either way, the risk remains high. And those are the instances that the communication with proper emotional intentions reach its limit in writing during personally attached dialogues. Content cannot be precisely expressed with the intended emotions, despite the best intentions. If I were talking to you in person, I would have real time feedback from your facial expression to word it carefully. I think it is me who needs your forgivess, even though I have feared your displeasure.
But I feel, the timeless heroism is the center of the topic and this is what bonds us together. It is what we pledge to, and what we defend. We fight like the Romans. (Because I believe, the USA is the Rome of our era)
>>It’s a catch-22. If I say nothing, there is a risk...
I'm not annoyed at all, I'm just serious.
You can definitely do what you need, like describing the history, awesome, criticizing Turks, cool, and I'm not going to judge you on racism issues, because I see your logic, it's not blaming people on race or ethnicity, it's all of moral and mentality.
You just chill out, I study math and I will see what you mean by words into details.
>>It’s a catch-22. If I say nothing, there is a risk...
And as you can see, I'm not a quite diplomatic person, sometimes might seem rude, though. When I say something, I usually mean it literally.
For example, when I say I don't think you're doing this, I just don't think you're doing this.
And yeah, thank you for caring about me that much when we're chatting.
>>I was rejected by a Chinese primary school just be...
This is where you were hurt. It’s regretful how it is reminded in an untimely fashion. And race factor is quite a meaningless barrier. In my view, it’s even worse than Russia and the Soviet. ( they have been more successful in integrating different ethnicities. I don’t mean they did a good job, but far better than this scale of nonsense )
And how deep it hurts for you is just as much as how much it hurts for me when I realize evil has stamped permanent marks into my mind: the ruthless logic and approach showing the cruelty with their distinctive pattern. From a realistic standpoint, probably you have received more actual suffering because you have been treated differently, with a lot of anguish, while I mostly got poisoned by myself without different treatment externally. (My psychological therapist, lawyer, one of the ex-bfs, and you are the only one knowing this. It’s too complicated to be comprehended. I just seem to have a dark side to my close friend but they cannot have a grip of how it works. It just takes too much knowledge to understand and it’s a luxury to have that) it is a scar that hurts every time it is touched, and it diminishes you from within. (That’s the very reason why castration is a cruel punishment, as how I spent a great length describing it) but of course, in no way I suggest you are weaker because of it, but rather, the heroism shows through the valiant resilience. (And resilience is the key, you can recover stronger afterwards. Castration on the other hand, the weakened strength, physically or mentally, is almost irrecoverable)
I hope I have made you feel whole again, or stronger. Courage and resilience fascinates me, and you have both.
Yet, dying as a martyr would be too unnecessary in my view. You deserve a productive life long ahead. It’s too wasteful to die because of a pitiful regime. So I guess the self-preservation, protection should be a priority than taking some stretched risks. (But of course some risks are unavoidable and living in isolation with near absolute assurance would undermine your personality, the elements defining yourself) you’re at a tender age, considering what you have obtained, knowledge wise.
Nevertheless, someone has to stand up with bravery. I’m quite annoyed myself when I find out, it’s always only me each time. It’s the loneliness and helplessness bringing us the sorrow, but upon knowing how I am (albeit, a quarter of the personality is corrupted and that portion is pretty bad. I’m putting that slice of personality into a sandbox so everyone can observe, what to be cautioned against) , I’m certain you don’t feel alone on this at all, nor after knowing a few others like yourself. And this is what matters. It amplifies your courage too.
I just hope, keep your situational awareness sharp so you’re shielded from dangers. (I hope, my vicious personality can have a projection to you about how your enemy may look like, how they might behave, so you know the signs to watch out for) You have my warm blessings, and may harm be spared from you.
Nevertheless, someone has to stand up with bravery. I’m quite annoyed myself when I find out, it’s always only me each time. It’s the loneliness and helplessness bringing us the sorrow, but upon knowing how I am (albeit, a quarter of the personality is corrupted and that portion is pretty bad. I’m putting that slice of personality into a sandbox so everyone can observe, what to be cautioned against) , I’m certain you don’t feel alone on this at all, nor after knowing a few others like yourself. And this is what matters. It amplifies your courage too.
I just hope, keep your situational awareness sharp so you’re shielded from dangers. (I hope, my vicious personality can have a projection to you about how your enemy may look like, how they might behave, so you know the signs to watch out for) You have my warm blessings, and may harm be spared from you.
娜塔莎希望我能和她去校园外散步,但今天一些不好的回忆被想起,也许这不是好的时间去休闲。对不起,娜塔莎。
2024年3月10日
2024年3月10日
I regret for causing you such a suffering. Despite my initial comprehensive calculation to avoid offensive sentiment, direction of calculation is obviously imprecise.
And as I try my best to assume, why it hurts so bad is because such a perception, in distortion, comes from me, not anyone else, and my unwise assumption revives the deepest scar in your personality. It wouldn't be as hurtful if it comes from others, more ordinary people as you wouldn't have as much respect. Due to the mutual affection towards each other's personalities, an alienation in assuming you superficially in this manner is cruel, amplified by your admiration towards me, it results in greater disappointment. I wish I can completely undo this revival of your scar like wiping off scratch on the sand, but I am aware just like pulling a nail out, the hole will remain. I hope the hole in your heart can be duly filled by my kindness again, and it is something I have to earn.
In the same principal, this is the very reason why Communism and Great Purge is horrifyingly cruel, from a professional psychology perspective. It was something I try to avoid discussing earlier, but as we come here already.
In their principal, the loyalty of the party is tested against the humanity and love. The greater the love is, stronger the personal bond is, once they are overcome (destroyed), through the most bloodthirsty(determination for the revolutionary cause, dedication to the loyalty of the party) ways, it shows how much stronger the destruction is compared to the love and bond, thus proving yourself you are closer to the party, than the humanity behind. Let's say, for example, you know how some teenagers could be madly in love. The bond can be extremely strong, more resilient than death sometimes, and when they denounce each other (usually it is like a dual. It might be impossible to pull the trigger after the first shot, as the person would be dead already), the love becomes hate, warmth becomes ice, and suspension takes over with terror as a prologue of death, sometimes with torture and humiliation.
Upon knowing this, that's why I am particularly careful about your perceived feeling, because I know my views have special meanings, but sadly it looks like, the limit of knowledge has been reached and I have to show my humbleness in front of you. I hope it is the start of a payment to this debt.
And as I try my best to assume, why it hurts so bad is because such a perception, in distortion, comes from me, not anyone else, and my unwise assumption revives the deepest scar in your personality. It wouldn't be as hurtful if it comes from others, more ordinary people as you wouldn't have as much respect. Due to the mutual affection towards each other's personalities, an alienation in assuming you superficially in this manner is cruel, amplified by your admiration towards me, it results in greater disappointment. I wish I can completely undo this revival of your scar like wiping off scratch on the sand, but I am aware just like pulling a nail out, the hole will remain. I hope the hole in your heart can be duly filled by my kindness again, and it is something I have to earn.
In the same principal, this is the very reason why Communism and Great Purge is horrifyingly cruel, from a professional psychology perspective. It was something I try to avoid discussing earlier, but as we come here already.
In their principal, the loyalty of the party is tested against the humanity and love. The greater the love is, stronger the personal bond is, once they are overcome (destroyed), through the most bloodthirsty(determination for the revolutionary cause, dedication to the loyalty of the party) ways, it shows how much stronger the destruction is compared to the love and bond, thus proving yourself you are closer to the party, than the humanity behind. Let's say, for example, you know how some teenagers could be madly in love. The bond can be extremely strong, more resilient than death sometimes, and when they denounce each other (usually it is like a dual. It might be impossible to pull the trigger after the first shot, as the person would be dead already), the love becomes hate, warmth becomes ice, and suspension takes over with terror as a prologue of death, sometimes with torture and humiliation.
Upon knowing this, that's why I am particularly careful about your perceived feeling, because I know my views have special meanings, but sadly it looks like, the limit of knowledge has been reached and I have to show my humbleness in front of you. I hope it is the start of a payment to this debt.
>>I regret for causing you such a suffering. Despite...
wesola niedziela, forget about it and let's just move on. I'm fine, thank you for being considerate.
>>wesola niedziela, forget about it and let's just m...
I am glad to hear this. I guess, it is settled, let's leave it dust to dust, ashes to ashes.
Certain things shall not be revived. (and this is why I am troubled. I experienced more than what I can remember, and I remember more than what I have experienced)
I appreciate your reply. I have to take time to think through. Your words are very kind.
It is another week for you, another start!
我越来越觉得为难了,
似乎你越来越了解中国,但是这些知识是如此的可怕,让我觉得提到就感到不寒而栗 🥶(所以我在回复后就立刻删除了,因为我觉得那些文字的存在就是一种对人性的亵渎,让我自己也感到恐惧和绝望🥶)
但是我又不能不说,因为如果不说的话,你直接经历,会更加猝不及防觉得恐惧,还有可能成为受害者,🥶
但是现在这已经让你觉得很可怕了,这该如何是好。
Ivan Pavlov的理论就是,治疗创伤,通过不断的暴露和重复,以达到不敏感(desensitization)
但是这是合适你的么? 或者,会不会这些信息太有毒了,会让你的灵魂变得邪恶,被毒害?我不知道。
我们是造了什么孽,需要知道这些?
我的部分人格已经邪恶得无法挽回,我能做的就是防止扩散和被放出来。而这个人格又是一种无价的知识,因为这就像是一个历史的重演一样,而历史又是如此的宝贵,教给我们许许多多。
Dmitri Shostakovich Dymitr Szostakowicz是唯一一个让我所有的人格都喜欢的作曲家,
但是他谱写的那些歌颂作品,都是他被操弄为牵线木偶后的产物。
似乎你越来越了解中国,但是这些知识是如此的可怕,让我觉得提到就感到不寒而栗 🥶(所以我在回复后就立刻删除了,因为我觉得那些文字的存在就是一种对人性的亵渎,让我自己也感到恐惧和绝望🥶)
但是我又不能不说,因为如果不说的话,你直接经历,会更加猝不及防觉得恐惧,还有可能成为受害者,🥶
但是现在这已经让你觉得很可怕了,这该如何是好。
Ivan Pavlov的理论就是,治疗创伤,通过不断的暴露和重复,以达到不敏感(desensitization)
但是这是合适你的么? 或者,会不会这些信息太有毒了,会让你的灵魂变得邪恶,被毒害?我不知道。
我们是造了什么孽,需要知道这些?
我的部分人格已经邪恶得无法挽回,我能做的就是防止扩散和被放出来。而这个人格又是一种无价的知识,因为这就像是一个历史的重演一样,而历史又是如此的宝贵,教给我们许许多多。
但是他谱写的那些歌颂作品,都是他被操弄为牵线木偶后的产物。
让我很沮丧的就是,昨天让你觉得🥶,这也让我感到恐惧。
我昨晚做了噩梦,把我所说的都经历了一遍,绝望充满了身体,让我觉得这是不是噩梦?于是我意识到了这是个噩梦,我就像是摁下暂停键一样醒了过来,脸上全是眼泪,枕头也被打湿。
这也就是我害怕的:我自己的知识已经让自己中毒。
我昨晚做了噩梦,把我所说的都经历了一遍,绝望充满了身体,让我觉得这是不是噩梦?于是我意识到了这是个噩梦,我就像是摁下暂停键一样醒了过来,脸上全是眼泪,枕头也被打湿。
这也就是我害怕的:我自己的知识已经让自己中毒。
>>让我很沮丧的就是,昨天让你觉得🥶,这也让我感到恐惧。我昨晚做了噩梦,把我所说的都经历了一遍,绝望充...
看看你!叫你不要一再回忆和品味它们啦,我为你难过。
我知道这是怎么回事,你知道这一切的地狱是如此可怕,但别人很难体验到,你希望他人能理解你发现的这种痛苦。索尼克先生,你要去想象,这里还有另一双眼睛冷静地观察你所看到的一切,即使你现在离开你熟知的痛苦,会有人去解决它们,很好地解决它们,而且你所经历的不会被忘记。
记住,一旦恐惧出现,你要意识到“可靠感”是会有欺骗性的,你要重新建立它通过否认恐惧的事情会发生,这又是通过决心付出否认的代价创造一个给你重新想象当前场景是否安全的机会实现的。
>>看看你!叫你不要一再回忆和品味它们啦,我为你难过。我知道这是怎么回事,你知道这一切的地狱是如此可怕,...
哎,
是的,我能够预测未来的趋势和某些细节,但是这些实在是太恐怖了。一切的地狱如此的可怕,而对此毫不察觉也是糟糕的,但是知晓这些也让人心灵受创。
那双眼睛又是谁呢?
恐惧造成的最大伤害之一就是不确定和不信任,从而进一步影响行为(比如说阉割焦虑。有小孩子成长的阉割焦虑,也有不文明的古代社会造成如此的恐惧进行压迫的阉割焦虑等等)我可能已经永远得失去了感知可靠的能力. 这就是最大的伤疤之一
穆罕默德!看看中国学生如何说英语!
“There have the function's answer x(方程的解x存在)”
“Cell is a biology(细胞是生命)”
我很好奇他们是怎么看懂英文教材的,后来得知他们通过阅读幻灯片和使用云翻译敷衍了事,没有研读原文的习惯,唉。
2024年3月13日
“There have the function's answer x(方程的解x存在)”
“Cell is a biology(细胞是生命)”
我很好奇他们是怎么看懂英文教材的,后来得知他们通过阅读幻灯片和使用云翻译敷衍了事,没有研读原文的习惯,唉。
2024年3月13日
>>Let's talk about it tomorrow, good night
And I hope it would be another day for you, leaving the negativity behind
我突然想起来,以前啊
好多社会主义国家,比如说苏联,中国,国家抓教育建设,让小孩子学计算机,因为80年代的时候中共苏共觉得未来是计算机时代,
所以让党员(因为党员素质过硬,不会叛变)搞培训教小孩计算机(电脑)然后计算机房是整个学校最重要的地方,别的地方都不装空调,只有计算机房有空调(因为计算机太金贵了)
很典型把计算机(电脑)看得比学生还重要。而小孩子呢,最期望上电脑课,因为可以偷偷玩电脑游戏,还有空调吹。
这又使我想起来了,东欧和中国以前经济水平不高,空调都是奢侈品。很多人,尤其是男孩,夏天光屁股玩,不穿衣服,是因为热,汗流浃背,又没有空调,没有办法的事情(女孩矜持,热死了也要忍着!不能有伤风化。不过我觉得可能穿裙子也没那么热吧),哪里像西方那样一直穿得那么考究呢?洗衣机洗衣机没有(所以老妈们洗衣服一洗就要好几个小时)空调空调也没有,夏天就只好光屁股了。
我在一篇文章里看到说,前社会主义国家,不像是西方国家,裸体和性是不怎么挂钩的。西方总是有这种,裸体啊,拍照片,色情,卖钱,变现,脱衣舞俱乐部!东方集团国家一点都不是这样,很多时候生活太苦了没办法,不裸体也不行啊!裸体并不是一件罕见的事情(比如说以前还有人修车不穿衣服,因为舍不得把衣服布料沾上油污搞脏了洗不掉,浪费分配的布料)
我的看法就是,西方国家物质太丰富了,人人都能穿体面的衣服,不可能因为空调洗衣机或者布料太差等等而裸体,所以刻意裸体的时候就有了性的暗示。 而东方国家物质太匮乏了,夏天经常就因为各种原因而暴露身体甚至是全裸,所以反而裸体和性暗示没有了那么强烈的联系。(比如说,西方国家泳裤随便买,而东方国家以前很多人泳裤买不到,或者买不起,或者计划经济没有分配到,舍不得在泳裤上用布票,那就只好穿内裤或者什么都不穿。)
这使我想到,发达国家各种法律处罚暴露癖等等,我觉得还是太发达了,以至于有人性压抑想暴露身体。而东方国家太贫瘠了,有的时候衣服还搞不好呢,时时刻刻都穿的整整齐齐的是一种社会地位的象征,只有低阶层(或者年纪小资格浅重要性低的人)的才会暴露,衣服都是一种恩赐!整个观念都不一样。而裸体又是一件如此平常的事情不值得大惊小怪!
这么一想想,感慨!
好多社会主义国家,比如说苏联,中国,国家抓教育建设,让小孩子学计算机,因为80年代的时候中共苏共觉得未来是计算机时代,
所以让党员(因为党员素质过硬,不会叛变)搞培训教小孩计算机(电脑)然后计算机房是整个学校最重要的地方,别的地方都不装空调,只有计算机房有空调(因为计算机太金贵了)
很典型把计算机(电脑)看得比学生还重要。而小孩子呢,最期望上电脑课,因为可以偷偷玩电脑游戏,还有空调吹。
这又使我想起来了,东欧和中国以前经济水平不高,空调都是奢侈品。很多人,尤其是男孩,夏天光屁股玩,不穿衣服,是因为热,汗流浃背,又没有空调,没有办法的事情(女孩矜持,热死了也要忍着!不能有伤风化。不过我觉得可能穿裙子也没那么热吧),哪里像西方那样一直穿得那么考究呢?洗衣机洗衣机没有(所以老妈们洗衣服一洗就要好几个小时)空调空调也没有,夏天就只好光屁股了。
我在一篇文章里看到说,前社会主义国家,不像是西方国家,裸体和性是不怎么挂钩的。西方总是有这种,裸体啊,拍照片,色情,卖钱,变现,脱衣舞俱乐部!东方集团国家一点都不是这样,很多时候生活太苦了没办法,不裸体也不行啊!裸体并不是一件罕见的事情(比如说以前还有人修车不穿衣服,因为舍不得把衣服布料沾上油污搞脏了洗不掉,浪费分配的布料)
我的看法就是,西方国家物质太丰富了,人人都能穿体面的衣服,不可能因为空调洗衣机或者布料太差等等而裸体,所以刻意裸体的时候就有了性的暗示。 而东方国家物质太匮乏了,夏天经常就因为各种原因而暴露身体甚至是全裸,所以反而裸体和性暗示没有了那么强烈的联系。(比如说,西方国家泳裤随便买,而东方国家以前很多人泳裤买不到,或者买不起,或者计划经济没有分配到,舍不得在泳裤上用布票,那就只好穿内裤或者什么都不穿。)
这使我想到,发达国家各种法律处罚暴露癖等等,我觉得还是太发达了,以至于有人性压抑想暴露身体。而东方国家太贫瘠了,有的时候衣服还搞不好呢,时时刻刻都穿的整整齐齐的是一种社会地位的象征,只有低阶层(或者年纪小资格浅重要性低的人)的才会暴露,衣服都是一种恩赐!整个观念都不一样。而裸体又是一件如此平常的事情不值得大惊小怪!
这么一想想,感慨!
>>我突然想起来,以前啊好多社会主义国家,比如说苏联,中国,国家抓教育建设,让小孩子学计算机,因为80年...
And you know, in our shared culture, it's more of art rather than eroticism when it comes to nudes, like, pole routine ain't considered porn.
>>And you know, in our shared culture, it's more of ...
playing outside naked is nowhere erotic neither.... especially near the lake or in the forest
it annoys me every time porn lovers keep asking me in a sexually charged manner and half of them come from the UK. Rest of Europe is pretty chill about it. I don't understand why Britain is particularly bad.
>>playing outside naked is nowhere erotic neither......
Jesus Mary, can't believe Britain has been like this, but maybe that's what was hidden behind Victorian Era's asceticism, you know, to see sex behind everything and try to escape it anyways at the same time.
>>Jesus Mary, can't believe Britain has been like th...
maybe that explains something. being sexual repressed and perverted while maintaining superficial facade appearing to be polite is a common combination there.......
I think it is better to be like me, sexually charged and honest. I think transparency is a better value than pretentious impressions (maintaining virginity or other nonsense)
but nevertheless, the sculpture is good.

Machine Gun Corps Memorial
Vickers Machine gun is legendary. Lewis gun is the peak of collaboration of British and American military effort, nothing else would be so perfectly balanced between those two nations and used in such a wide scale.
(Vickers became Vickers-Armstrongs and I was trying to maintain my preferences on engineering excellence through switching to Armstrong Siddeley automobiles but it proved to be too costly and impractical)
>>maybe that explains something. being sexual repres...
Then why do you think the Brits' sexually charged manner by which they talked to you is annoying? What are the details here? I mean, you just said you feel ok to be sexually charged.
>>Then why do you think the Brits' sexually charged ...
It is the perverted manner annoys me a lot. They tend to treat nudity as something socially unacceptable but they tend to desire it anyway, as if it is a form of voyeurism with my awareness.
Given how I am, I prefer to be naked in my house but still maintain my standard of elegant and graceful body language in good manners, well dressed or naked alike. That partially explains why I am comfortable with being naked than being soaky wet by sweat, and annoyed less by nudity than indecency. (and this is the part I quite dislike, as if nudity is paired with indecency in certain cultures. Pretty horrible in China and it upsets me almost constantly)
Maybe the underlying principal is little to no tolerance for hypocritical traits and perhaps this is why CCP and Bolshevism derivatives upset me alike: they say one thing and do exactly the opposite.
Now it makes sense, communism appears to be perverted to me also, not sexually but politically
>>It is the perverted manner annoys me a lot. They t...
I see, thanks. So you're not fond of being vulgar, but you are fine with nudity and sexual attraction itself, do I get it right?
>>I see, thanks. So you're not fond of being vulgar,...
Yes, exactly. And I am addicted to timeless beauty of ourselves, the health through physical strength, bravery shown through the body language and the resilient spirits.
In visual forms, examples would be this


for the same reason, I would be humble in front of the mighty kings in the past like them,
>>我突然想起来,以前啊好多社会主义国家,比如说苏联,中国,国家抓教育建设,让小孩子学计算机,因为80年...
这点.看来你说的是认真的.也属实..
https://news.ltn.com.tw/amp/news/world/breakingnews/2399583
“俄爹”貌似现在也这样..(兴许是那一代的小毛娃 小丫头 长大了?..已经形成某种惯性,就像共产病毒后遗症如是,应该是这样吧..狗得犬瘟热 活下来的很少,能活下来的也会落下后遗症,俄罗斯就是这样的例子,而波兰就是东欧集团/东方集团 里maybe相对最好的一种“结局”了,中下的策略是 罗马尼亚 1989年的武装推翻共匪病毒政府,可是
用暴力推翻,还是 比不上波兰的“圆桌会议” 天鹅绒般丝滑吧,我认为. )谢谢。
>>这点.看来你说的是认真的.也属实..https://news.ltn.com.tw/amp/news...
这已经不是那一代的小丫头长大了,最野的是苏联解体之后的那批,现在的已经文明多了(都还是如此夸张,真是过分)
不过我觉得对于裸体,没必要过度大惊小怪,这一点英国美国就很不好。
不过推翻共产党嘛,波兰,捷克都是莫斯科强加的傀儡,推翻后也容易多了,但是俄国这种发源地就不好办了(乌克兰也是)。到了大概五年前,乌克兰还是新兵体检全部脱光站一排,很不尊重人,还有人昧着良心拍视频直接发色情网站的,以这种文明程度,达到剩下的欧洲标准还很遥远。
你看看这群人,
https://www.huckmag.com/article/igor-samolet
https://www.rferl.org/a/russian-90s-captured-in-archive-project/28074462.html
我觉得那位要是在户外,河边湖边或者乡下没人的地方这样也还好(一到夏天俄国乌克兰到处都是这种人)但是在索契人多的地方那肯定不行,索契那是什么地方啊?那是俄国的门户地区,要对外做宣传用的。她要是跑去克里米亚海边这样都不至于此。
>>For the sake of Prophet Muhammad, I'm going to dea...
have you? maybe you can learn a thing or two from me as well,
>>这已经不是那一代的小丫头长大了,最野的是苏联解体之后的那批,现在的已经文明多了(都还是如此夸张,真是...
对于裸体自然体这类看法.我和您看法类似.但我的看法是一个前提.那就是 除非是特定场合 比如天体沙滩之类的 或者 自己私人空间以外. 尽量别再其他不.适宜.地方或者接受不了的人面前 露出自己的生殖器.至少要明白一点 人与人之间的尊重和理解,以及尽量不要添这样的困扰和麻烦给别人,这我想 也应该是人与人之间 最基本的 尊重概念之一吧...毕竟如果构成 公众猥亵他人(毕竟人家有权说你这样做是 猥亵,以及脏了她的眼睛)之类的有碍观瞻有伤风化的 骂名以及罪名 那确实挺麻烦和棘手的.我本人也喜欢和能够接受 .自然体.的精神.前提是 自己的都能够接受的圈子里 自己这个类别里的私人领域空间 可以这样.除此之外 还是不要.挑战.为好. 另外 我也不认为 .自然体.属于聚众淫乱的一种.可能就是单纯的觉得 自然 没束缚吧.心里怎么看还是很重要.谢谢.
>>对于裸体自然体这类看法.我和您看法类似.但我的看法是一个前提.那就是 除非是特定场合 比如天体沙滩之...
我最讨厌(毕竟人家有权说你这样做是 猥亵,以及脏了她的眼睛)这种人了,跟俄国某些议员一样,对待这种人我真想老款100卢布打一脸,上面全是阿波罗雕塑,
什么顽固不化的观念,看到男性性器官就要敲掉(女性下半身没得敲,所以这种人无可奈何,但是看具体情况,有些这种人会坚持敲掉乳头)。和我的一贯做法一样,我就喜欢下个套,抛出个诱饵,然后好好关门打狗,就喜欢怄气这种人。尤其是有些看到男性裸体就反应过度的人,最喜欢给这种人脱敏(desensitization)
>>我最讨厌这种人了,跟俄国某些议员一样,对待这种人我真想老款100卢布打一脸,上面全是阿波罗雕塑,什么...
哈哈哈哈.国内氛围您要清楚.反正我是不敢在 人迹罕至的乡下 全裸.虽然我也认同您这样的说法. 我怕遇到年轻女性 就被网络上挂人被网暴甚至被抓起来了.不知你知不知道前段时间 一个.成都地铁.事件不? 人家明明没有耍流氓.那女的硬说那位大叔偷拍她 耍流氓.蛮横着要看人家手机.然后确实人家就没那么做.接着这大叔还被反过来网暴了. 国内都这氛围了.我等还敢去 乡下人迹罕至的地方 自然露体?怕是我遇到习版 .八三严打. 直接就被就地正法了吧.....我反正是没您这个国外氛围条件这么放飞自己.我倒是怕得很. 顺便说一句 最近刚做的脱毛.我自己弄来得蜜蜡软膏.我称之为 自己操作的 男版比基尼脱毛. 腋毛 阴毛 胸毛 手毛 腿毛,我基本 全脱了.自己脱的.以后我可能还会定期处理,恐怕至此以后 我除了 胡须以外 都是全身光溜溜的了. 最近他们网络上在讨论什么 阮经天的周处除三害.我可以明确的跟你说 我留着胡子和剃了胡子 就是 阮经天那副长相.我没有自夸 自己帅的意思.因为阮经天在我看来 还好 很一般的长相.主要气质还挺亲切.谢谢。
>>哈哈哈哈.国内氛围您要清楚.反正我是不敢在 人迹罕至的乡下 全裸.虽然我也认同您这样的说法. 我怕遇...
我听说了,刷葱轮我也看到了,网暴也是赛博义和团,真是不象话。
我自己放得开但是的确社会条件跟不上。苏联再怎么迂腐,对人的身体和性要开明得多。你看当年中共还特地强调,要注意分寸不能跟苏共党员舌吻,
不过你那么多体毛啊,那是要脱毛膏,不然剃须刀都钝了......我为自己年幼就长阴毛感到苦恼,我又为腋毛生长的迟缓而苦恼,真是个极端人生
>>我听说了,刷葱轮我也看到了,网暴也是赛博义和团,真是不象话。我自己放得开但是的确社会条件跟不上。苏联...
我一般是毛发不长阶段先刮掉.然后是上蜜蜡.毛发太长 例如我的胡子 以后 可能要先用剪子剪短.然后在刮胡子. 但是我不打算 脱胡须.因为 毕竟旧约里 规定过 不可剃须.刮干净. 虽然这是旧约.是对犹太人的吩咐.但我觉得 男性还是要留着一点胡须的.阳刚之美.刮了胡子也有阳光之美.这才是自我气质塑造的完美体现. 弱子虽然我不用严格遵守 希伯来圣经.即 我们基督教的 旧约.里的对于犹太人的一些戒律习俗.但我觉得.我的胡子.还是有留有的必要的..其他的 包皮啥的 我早就隔了.这样没有包皮垢 还不臭.我是建议 大部分男性 有能力和心情 都去割包皮的.清理护理起来也方便.抱歉.跟您一聊天 我就不自觉的放飞自我了.可能你在这方面.也给我一种轻松和好沟通的 通情达理的感觉吧.所以一不自觉就默默地说的too much咯.嘎嘎嘎嘎~ 谢谢.
>>我一般是毛发不长阶段先刮掉.然后是上蜜蜡.毛发太长 例如我的胡子 以后 可能要先用剪子剪短.然后在刮...
毛髮不長就要刮掉,不然會堵住下水道....
我自己主要是不適合留鬍鬚,像是16歲男孩那樣,所以我還是刮掉。
不過猶太教對包皮過於執著,所以沒有什麼商量餘地。但是我很討厭割包皮,因為我爸媽想威脅割,我就偏不割!我覺得作為一個9歲的男孩能夠如此強硬得說不很難。(但是其實我當時就曉得我包皮過長)
我覺得嘛,對待人類,人體自身很坦然就好,覺得有傷風化反而是不必要的禁錮
>>毛髮不長就要刮掉,不然會堵住下水道....我自己主要是不適合留鬍鬚,像是16歲男孩那樣,所以我還是刮...
.包皮问题我就不多管闲事了(因为我自己反正是早早就隔了,比你9还要大个两三岁那个阶段年龄的时候,我也隔了).
并且我同意 您这段话 特别是最后那句.顶!
我收到了一封信,上面写着“一个星期”。
他可能还在外面。
2024年3月16日
他可能还在外面。
2024年3月16日
>>Yes of course, what's it?
我想你在最近的兩週已經直接間接感受到了許許多多,
比如說共產黨的那種“設個圈套,扔出個誘餌,堅決消滅”的方式,批倒批臭,已經如何觀察等等,
還有各種偵察反偵察手段(如果你仔細觀察會發現我以前的很多回复奇奇怪怪的改變了內容),
我覺得你需要注意的是不要因為這些知識導致自己的中毒(比如我自己的問題),所以我也是適可而止. 我覺得不能因為反共而失去了起碼的人性

