一些唧唧喳喳的日记

>>今天说的这些过于黑暗，让人沮丧..... 还有些更黑暗的东西我都不知道该如何说起，因为我觉得说出来本...

OK. let's talk about something more relaxing, Bolsheviks and the perished European boys, for example.
If I were the boy to choose under the approaching of the red regime, I would do as I answered in your post, that is to fight the Reds and die, just simple as that.
You know, sometimes you make compromise, sometimes you need to have principles of your life, if it's time to sacrifice for what you believe, just do it.
And if I were you, to decide how to develop the relationship with your exboy, I would analyze whether this person is lovable or not based on the perception of the entire set of facts, including his attitude kind of making you a substitution for girls, instead of seeing only a part of him each time and making your judgement not self-consistent nor continuous, then once it all decided, never will a change be. In my case, maybe I just choose not to be with him, even if I have serious romantic attraction to people, just like ordinary folks.