一些唧唧喳喳的日记
这是一些日记，它们不是真实的，它们应当是童话的一部分。
如果你从中分析出了什么，也许是因为多虑，因为它们完全是假的，我作为作者保证，它们不可能是真的。
如果你从中分析出了什么，也许是因为多虑，因为它们完全是假的，我作为作者保证，它们不可能是真的。
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有个细节，我想说出来，
Nederland你自己是asexual, 以前对于我浓烈狂野的性欲发表过鄙视感的评价，
但是我今天在心理医生那边回家的时候突然意识到，
我在跟你待了这几个月后（还有个原因，药物。但是这个药我吃了许多年，导致性欲减退但是并没有把我变成asexual), 最近两周我发现 my sexual appetite becomes a residual character. Active erotic sexual arousal cannot occur anymore and it is more a habitual arousal than an actual active sexual attraction.
And I realized, I purged the mathematics study as a part of anti-Bolshevik movement and soon afterwards, I was aggressively performing sexual acts (mutual masturbation and oral sex in classroom) with my peers due to my disbelief in communist sex education and I believed I had to keep having sex with my friends in school to affirm my anti-Bolshevik position. The more I did it, the more I was rebelling against such propaganda and more freedom I would have gained. It kind of makes sense but it is absurd when I look back now.
Currently I have only very weak sexual appetite (maybe it is the residual sexual arousal as a habit) and maybe I am closer to being asexual than I previously anticipated. Ejaculation doesn't need to occur more than twice a week (mostly it is once a week or even 10 days) but when I was younger, it was every day or few times a day. Maybe I wasn't truly that horny, but more for just to make a point. How silly I was!
I feel more relived not so hijacked by sexual tension as much, and it feels strangely good. I suspect, this is because of you? But how could this be possible?
Nederland你自己是asexual, 以前对于我浓烈狂野的性欲发表过鄙视感的评价，
但是我今天在心理医生那边回家的时候突然意识到，
我在跟你待了这几个月后（还有个原因，药物。但是这个药我吃了许多年，导致性欲减退但是并没有把我变成asexual), 最近两周我发现 my sexual appetite becomes a residual character. Active erotic sexual arousal cannot occur anymore and it is more a habitual arousal than an actual active sexual attraction.
And I realized, I purged the mathematics study as a part of anti-Bolshevik movement and soon afterwards, I was aggressively performing sexual acts (mutual masturbation and oral sex in classroom) with my peers due to my disbelief in communist sex education and I believed I had to keep having sex with my friends in school to affirm my anti-Bolshevik position. The more I did it, the more I was rebelling against such propaganda and more freedom I would have gained. It kind of makes sense but it is absurd when I look back now.
Currently I have only very weak sexual appetite (maybe it is the residual sexual arousal as a habit) and maybe I am closer to being asexual than I previously anticipated. Ejaculation doesn't need to occur more than twice a week (mostly it is once a week or even 10 days) but when I was younger, it was every day or few times a day. Maybe I wasn't truly that horny, but more for just to make a point. How silly I was!
I feel more relived not so hijacked by sexual tension as much, and it feels strangely good. I suspect, this is because of you? But how could this be possible?
